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Since everything is a choice… You can either choose to give or NOT. Regardless, peace and I will see you if I see you and if I don't I won't. Carry on… This is my cash me tag…  cash.me/$WayBtB

Artist

The first and greatest  Artist is GOD . Seeing that He always was, was here before and always will be. You can say “he’s wrong, I know ..”, but that is an opinion. Think about it...    

Memory/\/\/

Standing 'round the house, conversing with my ma'... Actually, the memory word for word moment by moment how exactly this memory was first brought about. Then time itself, along with wear of this world grasping the credit for my beginning to lose it was stopped by mine and everyone's Alpha and Omega. You see, myself being far from complex, the main reason for just next to everything I do is for what was said to me back in my re-beginning. My memory tells me without hearing distinct words, I just know. It is kind of like when first being released ... the only way to describe it is to say it. "All answers, everything you need to know, can be found at the beginning and the end." Beginning and the End … Of the day, of the season, at the time far earlier than late in my situation. Those two words meant little to not to me, looking back more attention should have been paid to them. At the time seeing that it wasn't as if as I at tinkering with whatev

My gym is the world...

        IT IS WHAT IT IS      ...And my world a gym, considering at first-wake knowing just next to nothing. My world consisted of my mother and my grandmother. Originally, I being a degree simpler than simple, all that was seen and known is known as the University of Virginia hospital... My first home away from home.So… Not knowing it  but this was my first instance of "It Is What It Is".        On top being windows to a person's soul, is just next to impossible for them to hide their true intentions. After successfully acquiring my steps2stepping from my second home away from home, HealthSouth Rehabilitation Hospital. My mother took me out to my house in the woods… where I love .First. What is done is far from unique my family prays and I with them, always remembering everyones' Beginning and End. Now you can say what you want because this is still a fairly free country, freer than not. What I've come to realize, to see in people&

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No matter the many times tried to comprehend, the hours, minutes and seconds. Were they a waste? The answer differs depending on who is talked to, who is asked. If friends or family, the answers are varying degrees of positivity. While the opposite is true if people from my past are asked. Early, while my brain injury was like a wee lad, I prayed to  my Almighty Father , pleading, that I would only remember the necessary things about my past. That which would prove useful to me in my future endeavors. So, despite some weird looks, I have long since been saying  peace  instead of goodbye, see you later, or any the other. Not because I think it's cool or anything,  it too is what it is . No more no less. Really, would you like the opposite… War? Hate? How idiotic would I look? My reasoning when I say peace, not every time but everlasting peace derives from the Prince of Peace. He is the only place  True Peace  can be found.     ALL my history is uniquely spotty seein

My injury, I would never...

       My injury, I would never ask for anything this drastic or extreme to happen to anyone, actions speak louder than words. My guess is that I was semi-aware that this could potentially take place. So my reasoning that everyone is some degree aware that before and while they're partaking in any action, the consequence may not be to their liking. For this analogy since a therapist said it, my head will be a filing cabinet and all my memories files inside. When my head came into direct contact with the cedar tree, even though my brain injury was closed in nature, "files" were metaphorically strewn all over the road. Then, when the emergency crew was summoned by Officer E N Stallard finally arrived, they were more worried about saving my life than collecting all the files. So they saved my life... From that point, even before, the respect I had for the helping professionals only grows by the day.  It all was what it was, as it is what it is.        As you go through

YouRhere

Why HELLO ... happy whatever day it may be.     ToSTART First, there must be an explanation of the placing "Happy" in front of whatever day it may be, a sort of greeting.  Being a gentleman who had lived through a car accident. That left him to face this world, half-a-man, I was in need of a way to brighten my days.  Although receiving numerous awkward stares, I kept it up till it didn't. Originally, my slower than quick ears picked it up off of Travis Coshco, a local weatherman for Louisa Co clued me into this trick.                When walking ‘round, primarily in public but at times among family, the feeling of eyes gauging my steps waiting and some hoping for my fall, simply gnawed at my brain. Towards the beginning this gnawing caused insecurity and fear to well up inside. Simply because, come on, there I was. Fresh from the hospital, roughly a year and a half but in my terminology, according to my mind’s eye. Seconds, days, months and years hav

Dr. FaddY... Don't know it ALL, just sharin' what I find.

Modern Strains link up, growing from, include all the strains from past years. 

Unique yet similar

DOLLAR STREET In the news people in other cultures seem stranger than they are. We visited 264 families in 50 countries and collected 30,000 photos. We sorted the homes by income, from left to right. C lick here to see    > how people really live < Families all over the World are more similar than we might think. The poorest still get many children, but most families have about two children. Sometimes families take care of their elderly relatives as well as their children. Dollar Street

My SOLUTION to ALL Problems

My solution may not sound as if it addresses ALL the world’s problems, but it DOES, the answer I speak of is Peace. Not just any peace either, not as the world gives, but True Peace can only be found in the Prince of Peace, Jesus Christ. I just said a prayer for your husband, if he does not have the peace that only the Prince of can provide, MAKE SURE it is offered him. Trust me it was far longer than short, but I am standing after living through a collision between the car I was driving and a cedar tree. Since I was not wearing my seat belt, thinking myself to be far smarter than not. Cedar being far harder than soft wood when it came into the passenger side of my vehicle it collided with my head directly. At some speed well over 65 mph and BLESSED me with this Severe Traumatic Brain Injury. You may be wondering, "Why does he refer to an injury of that severity as a blessing, not a curse?" To which I would respond, I do not exactly know why bad things happen. Besides this i

AboutME

My person, personality and being all is what it is. After being born, re-born, then re-re... so many times it makes none whatsoever. After living through the most drastic ruckdabuck of my life, in where my "main computer" fell asleep. Waking up and when I had finally reached the degree of cognition needed to understand, I eventually noticed my right side felt "blank" as if IT  was not there.  Almost everyone knows how talking themselves into climbing behind the wheel after consuming multiple ... is easier after consuming. You see I had been driving this way under almost every condition under the sun, moon and until I saw stars. Well, the stars turned out to be imaginary. Turned out they were from a brain injury, one of the severe traumatic sort. Was told at a later time that my body was suffering from semi-paralysis, mainly on the right side but my world was changed. This occurred on May 9, 2007, ONE DAY out of the many I will never remember but will an

Peace...

       Meandering through life just as a leaf does through air, I tackled problems as they present themselves to me. Still do too being a man more gentle than not, a fellow who began a re-life fighting against the enemy. Later realizing the worst enemy was himself.        Actually, the ONLY way I or anyone can even expect to win in the end lies in peace. The things the world both long for and detest... Love and Peace both being found, presented by the same source. What they want is not what they need.        On face value, seasonal peace sounds good but so do many sounds. It's good to gather and converse with people who do not believe as you do. Seeing that there can only be one right and one wrong.        Along with my reasoning, my urge to care had been falling apart, slowly disintegrating piece by piece since when it did. The actual date is impossible to pinpoint but things happened, unusual occurrences that would make it seem as though the world did not care, which it did

My, and everyone's, Author and Finisher

EVERYONE... has let the Author and Finisher down more times than they haven’t. Myself included... the key lies in teaching yourself not to let him down. The thing I will not stand for is the use of His name in vein, that being the third of ten laws given to Moses. I now follow a Being that set ten simple laws which I will present to you,  keep in mind IT IS NOT ME SAYING THIS BUT God Himself. If you disagree with anything stated here, take them to the proper place…TO GOD.    1. I am the Lord thy God, … Thou shalt have no other gods before me. I think that this law is the easiest law to follow personally, that is unless  you are one that seems compelled to hug trees, they are beautiful and all but… ———————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————- 2. Thou shalt not make unto thee any graven images. I think it’s easy to follow this one also. It even goes for images made by others. ————— ——————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————-

DisTRACtion

DIS · TRAC · TION dəˈstrakSH(ə)n/ noun plural noun:  distractions a thing that prevents someone from giving full attention to something else. “the company found passenger travel a distraction from the main business of moving freight” “a distraction from the real issues” extreme agitation of the mind or emotions. “He knew she was nervous by her uncharacteristic air of distraction” While younger distractions seemed fun not caring about the long-term, let alone the  end . ————————————————————————————————-  There are few things that are thoroughly disliked, everything is liked by degree. Since almost everything is liked, I must tell the few things that make up the opposite. For instance, I loathe the word “luck”, all the forms of and similar to the word “feel”. Some say, “The word Luck came from, and really means  lucifer .” It is merely only a coincidence that the first three letters match up… But if not. Regardless the king of lies has already lost. Wh

First birth...

Brief bio of Jesse Clowater:            On August 24, 1982, I was born in the city of Charlottesville. then grew up in Fluvanna County, where I did country boy stuff, like fishing, hunting, and playing soccer. My mom began taking me to church when I was two. I went to a Christian school until the ninth grade.             Even though I believed in God, I got further and further away from Him during my late teens and twenties. Substituting temporary fun for the Truth, I followed a track that would either end up in jail or a funeral parlor. Although           

Testimony

T estimony Hello. Life with a brain injury is way harder than easy, let alone one with the synonyms “severe and traumatic”  in front. I should know because I am blessed with one… When talking with people,  because it happens way more often than not, I wait for let’s say three seconds till the subject of what I do with myself between the hours of 9 to 5 normally comes up. Or if not that, normally I can tell them noticing the darting glances elsewhere on my body,  the way I walk. The “question” comes up. Why. I am ever so glad, in and un-glad kind of way, to tell them why. It is not that I do not know that it was and is a shame on way more levels than one. The way it I was living. Partying, the girls, and drinking, which way more than one person has been guilty of. May 19, 2007. The fact that I was driving solo on that night was merely a God-sent blessing. Thereby removing the need of me nervously stuttering while going through the story of what happened to a crying mother and

Bio...

Brief bio of Jesse Clowater: I was born on August 24, 1982, in Charlottesville, then grew up in Fluvanna County, where I did country boy stuff, like fishing, hunting, and playing soccer. My mom began taking me to church when I was two. I went to Christian school until the ninth grade. Even though I believed in God, I got further and further away from Him during my late teens and twenties. Substituting temporary fun for the Truth, I followed a track that would either end up in jail or a funeral parlor.                              After consuming copious amounts of moonshine with friends, I somehow thought I could drive home from Crozet. Because after drinking that "sauce" your invincible, or so you think. The Almghty forsaw a cedar tree connecting with my head at horatiously high speeds in the middle of the night, to wake me up.              I woke up days later in a hospital room with tubes and wire

Losing memory?

                Losing memory. At first, dealing with the world was easy almost too easy. Maybe it was the MJ making it seem that way or maybe it was. Numerous times various people I looked up to, people I respected would warn me. That I had better grow up and get my ducks quakin' in tune. The colors of the world, seeing that all the world is colorful. Yet why are all being reduced to the basics... Beware of group mentality, separating people into groups and pitting one against the other.  The memory of lying to myself, then people who called themselves friends backing the lie up flickers in my mind like a kitchen light running on its last fumes. When a person is first growing up they attempt to do things their own way, sometimes working, sometimes not.  Lying to themselves and each other, I remember this with the different degrees of clarity. Memory flicks into my mind of a friend, acting on my telling him I remember nothing, he then returned the favor. When in fact I di

RE-birth

According to Jean Piaget, a Swiss clinical psychologist known for his pioneering work in child development, children go through four key stages of cognitive development. The sensorimotor stage, from birth to age 2. The preparation of stage, from age 2 to about age 7. The concrete operational stage, from age 7 to age 11. Then the formal operational stage, which begins in adolescence and spans to adulthood. Now, seeing that this was in a sense my re-rebirth, everything moved as if I was on speed. What happened in years seemed to happen in months to me, disorienting, to say the least. I Googled stages of child development thinking I would get something far different, but I was wrong. Same-difference,  I have long since then quit attempting to get back pieces what was lost and instead focusing on what can be created new.

Way BETTERthanBAD ·

PEACE, Peace, I have come to the conclusion, thinking about myself first, that nobody on God’s green earth deserves the word “good”. Everyone is, in fact, some degree better than bad, even though they themselves try and hide, use many distractions, and/or point to someone else. When in need of peace, which the world constantly says it needs and is chock-full of versions of.  It resorts to some half- version of instead of the real thing, the True Way. Waking up in the hospital the overuse of the word "good" simply plagued my ears and mind's eye.  "Person one: How you doing today?  Person two:  Good …  good . You?" ---------------------------> Everybody's road is different, some bumpier than others. Mine had far more than no bumps, but you can either let the bumps take you out or learn from them. By God's grace, I have and will continue to learn. The First and foremost problem is group-mentality. ---------------------------> Peace

My STEPS 2 STEPPIN'

       On whatever day I came home from the hospital, I came home. The actual accident which occurred on 19th of May in the year 2007, left me bedridden. Unable to walk, seeing that I had "parked" my car where one stood a cedar tree. Cedar is the opposite than soft wood and upon coming into direct contact with my head, instead of breaking my skull, it blessed me with a severe traumatic brain injury, making the ONLY four words able to describe my injury... < ClickME >> Way BETTERthanBAD << ClickME >. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ People that know me now say that I can have some stubborn tendencies. All that can be said without thinking too deeply is THAT just as everything it too has a right and a wrong use. 

PEACE is as peace does...

Life is far better than bad, it's actually the opposite of. Opposites. The world is chock-full of them but think about it. You wouldn't have the rich if there was no poor. The same can be said about being pretty or ugly, them resting on the person judging's definition. It is He that has risen, all the answers can be found in the BEGINNING and END . Because J esus Christ has already WON in the END and the prince of this world, satan, is mad. You would be too if you knew that you had already lost. Being the prince of this world, satan is merely attempting not to be lonely in hell and take as many people with him as possible.